Times Flyingg:)

Been a while since I've wrote so I figured I gotta a minute. I'll Start with the kids:)

Seth Charles <3 Kylee Noelle
Seth:)--He's doing wonderful with his baby sister. He's always trying to help me out with her. Yesterday he fed her, he gives her lovins. Hes just soo sweet to and with her. It melts my heart and I couldnt be happier. He's starting to say more things finally whooo hoo haha! He now says: bad, buhbye, ball mamma && dadda. So he's on his way:) He's turned in to such a character and I have no idea what I would do with out this little boy. He' makes this deployment fun with all the crazy things he does. He's so smart. <3
Kylee:)--Well she'll be 2months old in 2 weeks. I can't believe how fast time is really going. When Seth was born I was so anxious for him to get older that his first 4 months went slow haha. But she's defnintely making this deployment go by faster. She's finally sleeping through the night. She goes to bed anywhere between 10-11 and wakes up anywhere from 6:30-8. Way better then before lol. We went to the doctor yesterday and she weighs 9.9. She's getting better at holding her head up. She hold its up for a good while then it gets tired. I'm gettin ready to put her in her crib. Ive been coming up in the morning an shes turned sideways haha. When i lay her on her mat she pushes her self off. Shes pretty strong. Oh an shes already trying to roll over. I have a feeling she's gunna do everything early so they can drive me nuts all at the same time haha! Ohwell it's going to be a funny journey with my beautiful babies<3

So on to other things. Deployment is zooming on by now. Were almost down to 4 months left:) Soo excited. I can't wait to have him home so we can have our lil family together. I miss him sooooooooo much its unreal. Tomorrow I'm getting my IUD. No more babies for me for now. We may or may not change our mind. Right now I'm perfectly content with my little boy && girl. This weekend Hollie is coming to visit for a week.. cant wait finally get to meet jackson an she gets to meet kylee! But other then that nothing else is new So Im puttin Seth down for a nap an then feeding Kylee then were off to Gramma Connies:)

A slap of reality...

So Levi had to leave us today and it's been one hell of a day. I've done everything in my power to hold back my tears. I haven't had much success with doing so. Anytime I thought about him, walked into a room with his clothes laying there, talked to him, or if anyone brought his name up I just wanted to cry my eyes out. When I go to bed I'm going to lay there an cryyyy my eyes out like theres no tomorrow. Just sitting here thinking about the fact that I have to go to bed alone for the next 6 months again makes me upset. It also breaks my heart knowing that in these 15 days Seth grew so attached to his daddy. Even the 1st day he was here it was like they were never apart. And now he has to leave us again. But I'm staying positive with high hopes that this 6 months will go by as fast as the first 6 months did. I have alot to keep me busy.

So with Kylee's arrival I have to get use to a new schedule. She's got her days && nights mixed up. Which has definitely been stressful. Seth wasn't like this at all he slept alllll night from the day i brought him home to now. I hope little miss gets on a schedule soon. I took her to the doctor today, she's back up at her birth weight.(: She's doing very well other then her sleep schedule haha. Seth is doing very well as a big brother. Today he was trying to play with her, feed her, and she was crying in her car seat an he was rocking her. So we all assumed he was going to be jealous but he has yet to show any jealousy. it may come later but so far he's doing good. Right now I think he's teething.. he's got the runny nose an drooling. TOday he was extremely whinny. I think part of it had something to do with missing his daddy  && teething. But other then that he's still his crazy little self. My babies may stress me out but i loveeee them to pieces. I wouldn't trade any of this for the world.

So tomorrow is the start of my diet && work out. I'm pretty excited. I started working out after I had Seth when he was like 2 weeks old. Kylee is just over a week old. But everythings fine an healed an even though they say wait 6 weeks I'm ready.. so screw them haha! well i'm gunna get going to bed... go do my crying so I can be strong tomorrow for the rest of this deployment.

i love you baby<3

April Showers bring May Flowers(:

First of all.. I can't believe it's already April 7th:) Soooo excited! Second.. the April showers bring May flowers saying is sooo true.. It's been raining like everyday! Warm temperatures but its yucky outside. Which sucks because Seth lovessss being outside! Speaking of Seth.. I feel bad for him..these last few weeks I've been irritable. I'm sure it's just the pregnancy because I'm drained an don't have much energy to chase him around an do all the things he wants to, not to mention it hurts to stand and sit and everything. My pregnancy with Seth was NOT this bad. And I was NOT this big. I can't wait until this is over with.. Only 20 more days:)) Well pretty much 19.... woop woop! Im so so so so so so excited :D

Cant wait till summer.. i just wanna sit in the back yard an chill in the pool with my little man.. considering Kylee will be too little! The pool will be my new home haha! I even more can't wait till my love his home for good an were in our house as living as a family! Anyhow.. dont have much more to say.. other then.. I hope the government don't shut down haha!

Everything is so CLOSE

Oh my gosh.. I feel like its so freaking close to seeing the love of my life<3. March is a busy month and I'm sooo thankful for that. Tomorrow I have to take my mom to her child support hearing EARLY! Then at 11:30 I have a WIC appt just so they will tell Im cut off. LOL Then she's taking me out to eat for my birthday! I think Tuesday is the only day I don't have something going on. However my little Monster an I will be going outside to play in the beautiful weather since it's going to be 51 and sunny out! Yay..(: Then Wednesday is my BIRTHDAY woop woop haha! I can't believe I'm gunna be 22..so wierd! This is my second birthday in a row that my love will miss..but thats okay he'll be home for more important events! Thursday I have an appt to check up on Kylee. They wanted to see me this week so they didnt go more then 3 weeks with out seeing me! I'll be 33 weeks by then an only 6 more weeks until Levi is home! Friday Seth && I are going to my dads till April 3rd. I'm so excited to see everyone. Especially my sister an her little baby belly lol! I hope I can feel my niece or nephew move! Opie said he's going to take Seth an I to see my Uncle Brian YAY! I would love to see Noah an how big he's gotten. Those 2 weeks at my dads will help my time go by fast. When I get back I will have 24 days left. Also My inlaws are going to cancun on the 5th. When they get back I'll have 2 weekends to get through Im soo freakin excited!

While Levi is here for his 2 weeks theres soo much I would love to do, but I know our time is limited. And you got to figure in 2-3days I'll be in the hospital giving birth an what not! However I do want us to take Seth to Chucke Cheese, get our family pictures taken, and spend the most time possible with each other. FYI to everyone though, I'm going to warn you that for those 2 weeks it's going to be like I feel off the face of the earth. Seriously! lol. May 7th were going to Kenny Chesney tho.. SOOOOO EXCITED. And I'm even more excited about it since it's something I've wanted to do since forever and I get to do it with My One && Only<3. I'm so lucky to have him. He's the best husband anyone could ask for and an AMAZING father(: I can't wait until he's home for good!

February is almost over...(:

So it's the 22nd which means theres only a week left in this month. YAY:) This month has went by extremely fast. Every day is going by fast but I'm sure after my birthday it will start dragging ass lol. I'll be 33 weeks which means I'll only have 6 lonnnng miserable weeks until Daddy comes home for R&R. I'm so freaking excited. I just wish that the weather would stay nice so Seth and I could go outside an pass our time. We had nice weather for about 5 days and then BAM ice storm. And since March is my birthday month ((hehe..yes Kim I still get a birthday month lmao)) All I ask for is starting March 1st is nice spring weather.. Is that so much to ask for??

Anyways..I feel like I should be doing something. I want to go down an organize everything and put all of Kylee's clothes away. However I don't have dresser for her yet, but I'm looking for one this weekend. I think I'm just really ready for her to come. At the same time I'm going to be sad when it's just me an Seth anymore. I know that i will still love the 2 of them just the same. It's just weird to think theres going to be 2 wonderful babies to make me laugh and occupy my time. I'm ready though and excited. I'm ready to take on whatever the world throws at me. That includes the Army, because they seem to throw the most shit at us.

So currently Seth is going through a stage where everything is a stage. Like right now he's on top of a box. He uses my wii balance bored, the coasters for the coffee table, and the edge of the fireplace. He stands on all these items an just stomps around. He also thinks he's quite the comedian((wonder where he gets that from..OHH that's right his father lol.)) The other night I went to check on him an he was trying to climb out of his crib. Like what the heck? I don't understand how he grew up so fast haha:) I am very proud of him though.

Comparing your self to a single parent!

So lately I've been hearing more and more about girls feeling like a single parent while there husbands are deployed or away etc.. and not that your wrong for feeling like that I completely disagree. Before you guys go an flip out on me.. It's just my personal opinion and your not wrong for feeling like that. The more I think about it though, the further away I feel from feeling like a single parent.


1.)Single parents really don't have the financial support coming in from the other parent. Whether its child support or them buying clothes, diapers, formula etc for the child. Usually the parent with FULL custody is usually supporting them 100% pay check to pay check! And I said USUALLY, because in some cases there are some who have both. While the other parent if out being irresponsible and falling behind on child support, the other one is working 2-3 jobs trying to make ends meet and pay for some kind of child care. However us wives of a deployed spouse have the option of not working an being a full time mom. YES we have to do everything..but isn't that the least you could do an NOT complain about it while your soldier is out working his ass off? And for those of you whose husband is deployed and you still work and come home to do you your wifely duties, then good for you:) 


2.) Single parents don't have to ask the other parent if they agree with your choice of disciplining. Or ask them there advice on what they should do if something happens. I know I still have to ask an take into consideration on what Levi thinks an feels on the subject whether right across the room or halfway around the world. 


Of course everyone needs a break once in a while from there kids and it's a lot harder to get privacy an an quiet time with your husband not being in the other room so you can slip away for 5 minutes. However, my life isn't much different when it comes to parenting with him here or there. I choose to to do everything on my own during the week because I feel he shouldn't have to wake up go do PT, deal with a bunch a crap at work an then have to come home an deal with all the duties of  parenting. Theres wives that just pass the kid off the second there husbands get home because they've had to deal with them all day. Don't get me wrong, he still comes home an hangs out with us && plays and helps with bath time, I just don't make him take care of the kids full time! And on weekends he gets up with them and does it all. So it works for us. And like I said no one is wrong for feeling like a single parent, this is just the way I feel about it personally! :)

Obstacles in the way...

Okay so yesterday was my last day talking to Levi for while because they've decided to cut off internet at his camp. So pretty much everyday is going to be a constant wonder .."is he going to call today...tomorrow..next week??"  BUT this is NOT going to bring me down. At first I was freaking sooo MAD..&& I cried and actually I'm still kind of mad but theres nothing I can do about it but try an look at the positive side! And the positive side to this would be..1.) That when I do hear for him it will mean that much more && I'll appreciate it more. 2.) In 2 months there suppose to be back at the "Main" camp which is a plus because after R&R he'll have internet again:) Gosh I can't wait to see him!!

On to other things. I would like to state the *FACT* that I have my OWN problems and things going on. So when you call and blow up my phone to ask about other peoples problems I'm going to get annoyed. When you text me about peoples drama && I don't text you back it's because I DON'T care. I have one question that runs through my head though..."Why do you care? If it has nothing at all.. NOTHING that concerns you at all. Why do you need to know?" It's sad when people way older than you are much less mature than you. I'm 21, about to be 22 with almost 2 kids...Shouldn't I be the immature naive one? Maybe I just grew up and they never did? But let it be known that I don't care. I'm trying be positive patty over here haha.. so I don't need anyones mess!

ANYWAYYSSS..... 9.5 weeks till I see my love..&& we meet our baby girl:)  love my babies && my hubby! I feel like I'm so lucky to have such a great life! My life is way better then I pictured it would be. Other then Levi not being here..we've been truly blessed with 2 amazing kids && one crazyy dog haha:) Even though Kylee isn't here yet I know she'll be just as amazing as Seth<3 I think it's because of my kids that I can continue to be so strong and try to be so positive everyday:)

Life is Greattt :-)

So today I have 10 weeks until I see my Amazing husband:) It's so soon! I feel like it's at the edge of my fingertips. I can almost touch it but it's still out of reach lol. AHHH I'm so pumped! For those two weeks my life will be completely *PERFECT.* I'll have my beautiful babies && wonderful husband. I'm so freaking excited! I just wish I had something to look forward to everyday. I must say I'm getting nervous. Having Seth is still so fresh in my mind. I hear your second kid comes faster, so hopefully that's true. Mainly I hope it's like Seth's labor. Honestly, it wasn't that horrible. A little less then 12 hours of labor and no complications..I consider my self lucky. So please Miss Kylee be like your brother haha.

Today my Mom brought over my law n order seasons 1-11. So excited I finally have them all.. yayayy. Also more clothes for Kylee. I got her bedding in the mail today..Aunty Kim got it for her since she won't be here for her shower. Now thinking about it she probably won't see her for awhile since she's not coming in May now. I was thinking about going to Texas in June but changed my mind. I had a difficult time with just me and Seth..it would be close to impossible with 2 children. Especially with Seth already running around like a mad man. Plus I talked to Levi today and I have to start saving even more money over the next year and a half because he reallllly doesn't want to resign which completely makes me happy because I hate more then anything how much he misses out on Seth's life && soon to be Kylee's. He's actually missing out on her already, pretty much my whole pregnancy:(

One month from tomorrow will be my birthday. I can't believe I'm going to be 22 years old. WEIRD haha! I just can't wait till April 1st. Then I have less then 1 month until I see my love<3. Gosh seems so soon! SOOO SOOOOON! Haha. Can you tell I'm that excited:) Well that's all for now!

National Drama day!!

So yesterday was National Drama day.. everyone had DRAMA up the butt. Except me because I'm the only smart one. LMAO just kidding guys:). However.. I must say I feel bad for these people who have low self esteem that they have nothing better to do then call people fat and ugly, when cleaaarly this girl doesn't even have a ounce of fat on her. What because she's not a size 0? And for one the other person to say it, Uhm weren't you like 100lbs heavier not that long ago. "People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones" <--That quote definitely fits them perfectly. You have so many flaws yourself and you want to pick on someone that has alot more going for her then you do?? Jealousy's a bitch I guess. I just hope that you teach your kids differently. Unless you see nothing wrong with being immature an childish.. then hey go for it!

ANYWAYSS..I've decided that I'm only going to allow my self one depressing day a month lol. My depressing days, or the days I'm in a "funk" go by sooo slow! Today was a great day :) I woke up at 9 to a big smile on my Monsters face.  I washed his bedding, we came upstairs ate breakfast, put some music on, made Levi some puppy chow. Then we played an danced around for awhile and before I knew it was after 1. So I put Seth down for his nap. Took a shower and now Seth is eating a snack an playing:) Tomorrow we have new furniture coming.. YAY:) However there delivering it anywhere between 4-7 pm.. Those are just weird times to me lol! But whateverr!

Sooo. I've decided treat deployment like basic training lol! (Of couse it's completely different) But I mean like time wise. I got through basic an that was only 4 months. And if you figure with R&R right in the middle.. it's like basic all over again only 2 extra months. So only 12 more weeks until he "graduates" LMAO && then 6 months to go after that. But I'm thinking now that the last 6 months will actually go by faster because of summer. I will always be outside with the kids an swimming :)) Of course the lastttt month will drag on and feel like another year. Just like come end of March and begining of April those days will go by soo slow! But thinking about it RIGHT NOW.. it's goin by fast lol!

12 weeks to go..(: a.k.a 2.5 Months:) ..a.k.a 84 daysssss:))

LML<3

PS.. Congrats Jena. && Wes. They get their hubby/daddy back today:))

Things happen for a reason:)

Today was a pretty good day:) Even though when I left for my appointment my car wouldn't start:( Apparently my starter went out.. GRR! So I had to reschedule my appointment for Thursday. Hopefully it's fixed by then! After I came back inside Levi called me like 10 mins later and surprisingly I could hear him clear as day. Of course we could only talk for a little bit because he is going somewhere for a week for classes. Makes me think my car decided to do that so we could see daddy before we couldn't talk to him for a week! 

Seth seems to be back to his normal self. He keeps me pretty busy. He happens to think he's funny like his father lol. But he is pretty funny. He has this new thing where when he get's in trouble he spanks the dog and says "Bad bad bad" He's a very strong willed young man though. He knows what he wants an he's very insistent about getting it. When he gets mad at someone he growls at you and hits you. :( Were trying to nip that in the butt right now. He's so smart though. Levi and I couldn't be more proud of him. If I tell him to get his juice, milk, ball, monkey and so much more he does it. He also lets me know what he wants by pointing at it! I've been working with him on words. So far all he knows is "bad" haha. but it's a start! I'm thinking by the time Levi comes home for R&R he's going to be saying soo much. 

Speaking of R&R, I'm trying to think of ways that will make these next 3 months fly by. Tomorrow were going to be cleaning.. or attempting to clean since now my car is broken an I can't drop Seth off at Grandmas house. So were going to have a challenge on our hands. Sunday is Super Bowl Sunday. Then Thursday I have an appointment for Miss Kylee. After that appointment I'll be goin every 2 weeks, so that will help out to make it go faster. Friday we get our taxes so I'm going to pay off some credit cards and get some things for Kylee. Weekends always seem to go by fast for me thank goodness lol. Then Monday is payday which will put us halfway through the month. Positive note: February only has 28 days so that gets me 2 days closer to seeing my love<3. Then Comes March.. I got my sisters birthday on the 10th. Not that I can spend it with her but point being is something to look forward to. Then 6 days later is MY birthday BIG 22:) Then 2 weeks later is APRIL... and I already know that those last 26 days are going to drag ass. Actually it's going to start draggin ass March 26th, because that will be roughly a month when he comes home! So breaking this down actually made me realize even more that it's sooo soon! I just cant wait. Even though those 2 weeks will last exactly 2 minutes I will just be in awe that I can be with him! 

Well that's all for now:) 

3 Months into deployment...

So I would like to start out by saying that for all you girls that say "It gets easier as time goes on" You couldn't be more wrong. It's only gotten harder. At the beginning like the 1st week in..I thought to my self oh this wont be soo bad. That couldn't be further from the truth. Levi's had to go through things that I knew *could* happen but didn't think *WOULD* happen. Stupid of me to think that really.. but I guess after listening to so many people say "ohh it's not bad && theres nothing goin on" Over there.. I guess I started to believe it I guess. And then they've decided to screw with the internet so I can talk to him like 3 seconds at a time. Which trust me... I am verrrry thankful for don't get me wrong.. but it's definitely frustrating for the both of us!

I've grown as a person during this deployment. And it will only be 3 months on the 10th. I've realized all the petty stupid crap doesn't matter. And personally I don't care about who's talking about who .. or whos going to jail next week ((Sorry Kim..you can talk it all out and I'll attempt to listen LMAO)) Every little moment with my little family is precious and I will no longer take that for granted like I did in the past. This has made our relationship stronger & realize what we have and could lose at any given moment!

 I'm so torn lately because I'm soo happy and love my life because everyday my son does something that I couldn't be more proud of him. But at the same time I'm so upset an depressed that Levi is missing out on so much and it's just not fair he's not here for it! He's over there miserable and theres nothing I can do for him! I'm trying so hard to stay strong but it's just getting so hard to do so! I can't wait for this to be over. Only 9 months to go.. ............9 looong months! but only 3 months till R&R and miss Kylee is here:))

So with all this being said.. be thankful for what you have.