So Levi had to leave us today and it's been one hell of a day. I've done everything in my power to hold back my tears. I haven't had much success with doing so. Anytime I thought about him, walked into a room with his clothes laying there, talked to him, or if anyone brought his name up I just wanted to cry my eyes out. When I go to bed I'm going to lay there an cryyyy my eyes out like theres no tomorrow. Just sitting here thinking about the fact that I have to go to bed alone for the next 6 months again makes me upset. It also breaks my heart knowing that in these 15 days Seth grew so attached to his daddy. Even the 1st day he was here it was like they were never apart. And now he has to leave us again. But I'm staying positive with high hopes that this 6 months will go by as fast as the first 6 months did. I have alot to keep me busy.
So with Kylee's arrival I have to get use to a new schedule. She's got her days && nights mixed up. Which has definitely been stressful. Seth wasn't like this at all he slept alllll night from the day i brought him home to now. I hope little miss gets on a schedule soon. I took her to the doctor today, she's back up at her birth weight.(: She's doing very well other then her sleep schedule haha. Seth is doing very well as a big brother. Today he was trying to play with her, feed her, and she was crying in her car seat an he was rocking her. So we all assumed he was going to be jealous but he has yet to show any jealousy. it may come later but so far he's doing good. Right now I think he's teething.. he's got the runny nose an drooling. TOday he was extremely whinny. I think part of it had something to do with missing his daddy && teething. But other then that he's still his crazy little self. My babies may stress me out but i loveeee them to pieces. I wouldn't trade any of this for the world.
So tomorrow is the start of my diet && work out. I'm pretty excited. I started working out after I had Seth when he was like 2 weeks old. Kylee is just over a week old. But everythings fine an healed an even though they say wait 6 weeks I'm ready.. so screw them haha! well i'm gunna get going to bed... go do my crying so I can be strong tomorrow for the rest of this deployment.
i love you baby<3
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