Times Flyingg:)

Been a while since I've wrote so I figured I gotta a minute. I'll Start with the kids:)

Seth Charles <3 Kylee Noelle
Seth:)--He's doing wonderful with his baby sister. He's always trying to help me out with her. Yesterday he fed her, he gives her lovins. Hes just soo sweet to and with her. It melts my heart and I couldnt be happier. He's starting to say more things finally whooo hoo haha! He now says: bad, buhbye, ball mamma && dadda. So he's on his way:) He's turned in to such a character and I have no idea what I would do with out this little boy. He' makes this deployment fun with all the crazy things he does. He's so smart. <3
Kylee:)--Well she'll be 2months old in 2 weeks. I can't believe how fast time is really going. When Seth was born I was so anxious for him to get older that his first 4 months went slow haha. But she's defnintely making this deployment go by faster. She's finally sleeping through the night. She goes to bed anywhere between 10-11 and wakes up anywhere from 6:30-8. Way better then before lol. We went to the doctor yesterday and she weighs 9.9. She's getting better at holding her head up. She hold its up for a good while then it gets tired. I'm gettin ready to put her in her crib. Ive been coming up in the morning an shes turned sideways haha. When i lay her on her mat she pushes her self off. Shes pretty strong. Oh an shes already trying to roll over. I have a feeling she's gunna do everything early so they can drive me nuts all at the same time haha! Ohwell it's going to be a funny journey with my beautiful babies<3

So on to other things. Deployment is zooming on by now. Were almost down to 4 months left:) Soo excited. I can't wait to have him home so we can have our lil family together. I miss him sooooooooo much its unreal. Tomorrow I'm getting my IUD. No more babies for me for now. We may or may not change our mind. Right now I'm perfectly content with my little boy && girl. This weekend Hollie is coming to visit for a week.. cant wait finally get to meet jackson an she gets to meet kylee! But other then that nothing else is new So Im puttin Seth down for a nap an then feeding Kylee then were off to Gramma Connies:)

A slap of reality...

So Levi had to leave us today and it's been one hell of a day. I've done everything in my power to hold back my tears. I haven't had much success with doing so. Anytime I thought about him, walked into a room with his clothes laying there, talked to him, or if anyone brought his name up I just wanted to cry my eyes out. When I go to bed I'm going to lay there an cryyyy my eyes out like theres no tomorrow. Just sitting here thinking about the fact that I have to go to bed alone for the next 6 months again makes me upset. It also breaks my heart knowing that in these 15 days Seth grew so attached to his daddy. Even the 1st day he was here it was like they were never apart. And now he has to leave us again. But I'm staying positive with high hopes that this 6 months will go by as fast as the first 6 months did. I have alot to keep me busy.

So with Kylee's arrival I have to get use to a new schedule. She's got her days && nights mixed up. Which has definitely been stressful. Seth wasn't like this at all he slept alllll night from the day i brought him home to now. I hope little miss gets on a schedule soon. I took her to the doctor today, she's back up at her birth weight.(: She's doing very well other then her sleep schedule haha. Seth is doing very well as a big brother. Today he was trying to play with her, feed her, and she was crying in her car seat an he was rocking her. So we all assumed he was going to be jealous but he has yet to show any jealousy. it may come later but so far he's doing good. Right now I think he's teething.. he's got the runny nose an drooling. TOday he was extremely whinny. I think part of it had something to do with missing his daddy  && teething. But other then that he's still his crazy little self. My babies may stress me out but i loveeee them to pieces. I wouldn't trade any of this for the world.

So tomorrow is the start of my diet && work out. I'm pretty excited. I started working out after I had Seth when he was like 2 weeks old. Kylee is just over a week old. But everythings fine an healed an even though they say wait 6 weeks I'm ready.. so screw them haha! well i'm gunna get going to bed... go do my crying so I can be strong tomorrow for the rest of this deployment.

i love you baby<3

April Showers bring May Flowers(:

First of all.. I can't believe it's already April 7th:) Soooo excited! Second.. the April showers bring May flowers saying is sooo true.. It's been raining like everyday! Warm temperatures but its yucky outside. Which sucks because Seth lovessss being outside! Speaking of Seth.. I feel bad for him..these last few weeks I've been irritable. I'm sure it's just the pregnancy because I'm drained an don't have much energy to chase him around an do all the things he wants to, not to mention it hurts to stand and sit and everything. My pregnancy with Seth was NOT this bad. And I was NOT this big. I can't wait until this is over with.. Only 20 more days:)) Well pretty much 19.... woop woop! Im so so so so so so excited :D

Cant wait till summer.. i just wanna sit in the back yard an chill in the pool with my little man.. considering Kylee will be too little! The pool will be my new home haha! I even more can't wait till my love his home for good an were in our house as living as a family! Anyhow.. dont have much more to say.. other then.. I hope the government don't shut down haha!

Everything is so CLOSE

Oh my gosh.. I feel like its so freaking close to seeing the love of my life<3. March is a busy month and I'm sooo thankful for that. Tomorrow I have to take my mom to her child support hearing EARLY! Then at 11:30 I have a WIC appt just so they will tell Im cut off. LOL Then she's taking me out to eat for my birthday! I think Tuesday is the only day I don't have something going on. However my little Monster an I will be going outside to play in the beautiful weather since it's going to be 51 and sunny out! Yay..(: Then Wednesday is my BIRTHDAY woop woop haha! I can't believe I'm gunna be 22..so wierd! This is my second birthday in a row that my love will miss..but thats okay he'll be home for more important events! Thursday I have an appt to check up on Kylee. They wanted to see me this week so they didnt go more then 3 weeks with out seeing me! I'll be 33 weeks by then an only 6 more weeks until Levi is home! Friday Seth && I are going to my dads till April 3rd. I'm so excited to see everyone. Especially my sister an her little baby belly lol! I hope I can feel my niece or nephew move! Opie said he's going to take Seth an I to see my Uncle Brian YAY! I would love to see Noah an how big he's gotten. Those 2 weeks at my dads will help my time go by fast. When I get back I will have 24 days left. Also My inlaws are going to cancun on the 5th. When they get back I'll have 2 weekends to get through Im soo freakin excited!

While Levi is here for his 2 weeks theres soo much I would love to do, but I know our time is limited. And you got to figure in 2-3days I'll be in the hospital giving birth an what not! However I do want us to take Seth to Chucke Cheese, get our family pictures taken, and spend the most time possible with each other. FYI to everyone though, I'm going to warn you that for those 2 weeks it's going to be like I feel off the face of the earth. Seriously! lol. May 7th were going to Kenny Chesney tho.. SOOOOO EXCITED. And I'm even more excited about it since it's something I've wanted to do since forever and I get to do it with My One && Only<3. I'm so lucky to have him. He's the best husband anyone could ask for and an AMAZING father(: I can't wait until he's home for good!

February is almost over...(:

So it's the 22nd which means theres only a week left in this month. YAY:) This month has went by extremely fast. Every day is going by fast but I'm sure after my birthday it will start dragging ass lol. I'll be 33 weeks which means I'll only have 6 lonnnng miserable weeks until Daddy comes home for R&R. I'm so freaking excited. I just wish that the weather would stay nice so Seth and I could go outside an pass our time. We had nice weather for about 5 days and then BAM ice storm. And since March is my birthday month ((hehe..yes Kim I still get a birthday month lmao)) All I ask for is starting March 1st is nice spring weather.. Is that so much to ask for??

Anyways..I feel like I should be doing something. I want to go down an organize everything and put all of Kylee's clothes away. However I don't have dresser for her yet, but I'm looking for one this weekend. I think I'm just really ready for her to come. At the same time I'm going to be sad when it's just me an Seth anymore. I know that i will still love the 2 of them just the same. It's just weird to think theres going to be 2 wonderful babies to make me laugh and occupy my time. I'm ready though and excited. I'm ready to take on whatever the world throws at me. That includes the Army, because they seem to throw the most shit at us.

So currently Seth is going through a stage where everything is a stage. Like right now he's on top of a box. He uses my wii balance bored, the coasters for the coffee table, and the edge of the fireplace. He stands on all these items an just stomps around. He also thinks he's quite the comedian((wonder where he gets that from..OHH that's right his father lol.)) The other night I went to check on him an he was trying to climb out of his crib. Like what the heck? I don't understand how he grew up so fast haha:) I am very proud of him though.

Comparing your self to a single parent!

So lately I've been hearing more and more about girls feeling like a single parent while there husbands are deployed or away etc.. and not that your wrong for feeling like that I completely disagree. Before you guys go an flip out on me.. It's just my personal opinion and your not wrong for feeling like that. The more I think about it though, the further away I feel from feeling like a single parent.


1.)Single parents really don't have the financial support coming in from the other parent. Whether its child support or them buying clothes, diapers, formula etc for the child. Usually the parent with FULL custody is usually supporting them 100% pay check to pay check! And I said USUALLY, because in some cases there are some who have both. While the other parent if out being irresponsible and falling behind on child support, the other one is working 2-3 jobs trying to make ends meet and pay for some kind of child care. However us wives of a deployed spouse have the option of not working an being a full time mom. YES we have to do everything..but isn't that the least you could do an NOT complain about it while your soldier is out working his ass off? And for those of you whose husband is deployed and you still work and come home to do you your wifely duties, then good for you:) 


2.) Single parents don't have to ask the other parent if they agree with your choice of disciplining. Or ask them there advice on what they should do if something happens. I know I still have to ask an take into consideration on what Levi thinks an feels on the subject whether right across the room or halfway around the world. 


Of course everyone needs a break once in a while from there kids and it's a lot harder to get privacy an an quiet time with your husband not being in the other room so you can slip away for 5 minutes. However, my life isn't much different when it comes to parenting with him here or there. I choose to to do everything on my own during the week because I feel he shouldn't have to wake up go do PT, deal with a bunch a crap at work an then have to come home an deal with all the duties of  parenting. Theres wives that just pass the kid off the second there husbands get home because they've had to deal with them all day. Don't get me wrong, he still comes home an hangs out with us && plays and helps with bath time, I just don't make him take care of the kids full time! And on weekends he gets up with them and does it all. So it works for us. And like I said no one is wrong for feeling like a single parent, this is just the way I feel about it personally! :)

Obstacles in the way...

Okay so yesterday was my last day talking to Levi for while because they've decided to cut off internet at his camp. So pretty much everyday is going to be a constant wonder .."is he going to call today...tomorrow..next week??"  BUT this is NOT going to bring me down. At first I was freaking sooo MAD..&& I cried and actually I'm still kind of mad but theres nothing I can do about it but try an look at the positive side! And the positive side to this would be..1.) That when I do hear for him it will mean that much more && I'll appreciate it more. 2.) In 2 months there suppose to be back at the "Main" camp which is a plus because after R&R he'll have internet again:) Gosh I can't wait to see him!!

On to other things. I would like to state the *FACT* that I have my OWN problems and things going on. So when you call and blow up my phone to ask about other peoples problems I'm going to get annoyed. When you text me about peoples drama && I don't text you back it's because I DON'T care. I have one question that runs through my head though..."Why do you care? If it has nothing at all.. NOTHING that concerns you at all. Why do you need to know?" It's sad when people way older than you are much less mature than you. I'm 21, about to be 22 with almost 2 kids...Shouldn't I be the immature naive one? Maybe I just grew up and they never did? But let it be known that I don't care. I'm trying be positive patty over here haha.. so I don't need anyones mess!

ANYWAYYSSS..... 9.5 weeks till I see my love..&& we meet our baby girl:)  love my babies && my hubby! I feel like I'm so lucky to have such a great life! My life is way better then I pictured it would be. Other then Levi not being here..we've been truly blessed with 2 amazing kids && one crazyy dog haha:) Even though Kylee isn't here yet I know she'll be just as amazing as Seth<3 I think it's because of my kids that I can continue to be so strong and try to be so positive everyday:)