3 Months into deployment...

So I would like to start out by saying that for all you girls that say "It gets easier as time goes on" You couldn't be more wrong. It's only gotten harder. At the beginning like the 1st week in..I thought to my self oh this wont be soo bad. That couldn't be further from the truth. Levi's had to go through things that I knew *could* happen but didn't think *WOULD* happen. Stupid of me to think that really.. but I guess after listening to so many people say "ohh it's not bad && theres nothing goin on" Over there.. I guess I started to believe it I guess. And then they've decided to screw with the internet so I can talk to him like 3 seconds at a time. Which trust me... I am verrrry thankful for don't get me wrong.. but it's definitely frustrating for the both of us!

I've grown as a person during this deployment. And it will only be 3 months on the 10th. I've realized all the petty stupid crap doesn't matter. And personally I don't care about who's talking about who .. or whos going to jail next week ((Sorry Kim..you can talk it all out and I'll attempt to listen LMAO)) Every little moment with my little family is precious and I will no longer take that for granted like I did in the past. This has made our relationship stronger & realize what we have and could lose at any given moment!

 I'm so torn lately because I'm soo happy and love my life because everyday my son does something that I couldn't be more proud of him. But at the same time I'm so upset an depressed that Levi is missing out on so much and it's just not fair he's not here for it! He's over there miserable and theres nothing I can do for him! I'm trying so hard to stay strong but it's just getting so hard to do so! I can't wait for this to be over. Only 9 months to go.. ............9 looong months! but only 3 months till R&R and miss Kylee is here:))

So with all this being said.. be thankful for what you have.